CRASH AND BURN

So, I haven't blogged in awhile, and while I haven't been blogging I have slipped, MAJORLY.  This isn't like an "Oh, I just had a bad day, or week" sort of slip, this is an "Ah, $*i%! I had a HORRIBLE couple of months" sort of slip.  I realized this when I went to the doctor's last week and they weighed me - the scale said 232.2 lbs.  *insert heart shattering here*  And then on Sunday I weighed myself on a home scale and it read 234 lbs.  At this point, I was too bummed out to care, if that makes any sense.

I'm really starting to think that I sabotage myself on purpose and need to do a bit of soul searching, so to speak, to figure out why I keep doing this to myself.  I really hate the starting over and the disappointments of failing....yet again.  I know that there can be some psychological things that keep people from losing weight like they want, and keep them gaining it.  Maybe I have some deep seeded issues that need to be talked out?  Or maybe I just love food and am lazy?  Either way, something's gotta give! 

And so I start.....again.  This time around I'm doing Weight Watchers.  I've done it before and it worked well for me.  To me, it's easier than counting calories.  My friend was also nice enough to get me a gym membership, an add on, to his.  It's to Gold's Gym, which is a LOT closer than my old gym was.  I also want to still do some at home things in addition to the stuff that I do at the gym.  Also, I want to start jazzing it up a bit and go out to do things that I like to do like kayaking and such.

Here are my new goals:

1) Drink nothing but water - i.e. no more sodas, coffee, tea etc.
2) Workout 3-4 times a week for the first 4-6 weeks - anymore and I might get tired of going
3) NO MORE FAST FOOD! - this one is a HUGE crutch for me
4) Weigh/measure myself once a week - keeping track of progress helps
5) Don't get down on myself when I have a bad day - it'll only make things worse
6) Discover the root of my weight issue - hidden issues? Just lazy and like junk food?
7) Just have small goals - an overall, large goal is too overwhelming and can easily discourage
8) Have fun! - Find things that are active that I enjoy doing!


And that's it for now.  I'll try to keep y'all updated...again. lol!

Later,

Sarah